Adam: My Rainbow Baby
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Yesterday, October 15th was national pregnancy and infant loss day. People around the world lit candles and talked about the sweet babies they had lost. As I read through my newsfeed on Facebook and saw how many people had suffered loss, I thought about my own loss a little over four years ago.
In July of 2009, I miscarried my first baby. It was heartbreaking and very hard. It’s something I still think about often and am so thankful that my sweet baby is in Heaven. But during this period of remembrance of loss yesterday I thought of everything I had gained: my son, Adam. Had it not been for the loss of this sweet little baby, I would never have known Adam, he simply would not exist.
“In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as ‘Rainbow Babies.’ The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. ‘Rainbow Babies’ is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesnât mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.”
I am deeply sorry for your loss. It breaks my heart how many of my friends have lost babies, and it makes me hug mine even closer.
“Had it not been for the loss of this sweet little baby, I would never have known Adam, he simply would not exist.”
Such a beautiful sentiment. That really does sum up “rainbow babies” for me.
Thank you Alyce, I appreciate that. It breaks my heart as well to see so many of my friends go through what I did – some multiple times. I just love the term rainbow babies, it’s so beautiful. Thanks for commenting! đ
So sorry for your loss. Miscarriage is so hard, but many times we suffer silently. There isn’t a day that I don’t think about my 8 children in heaven. We will always want to know how they would be, what they would grow up to become, and how they would have fit into our lives. Thank you for your blog.
Amy, I am so so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine losing so many. So thankful for God who gives us peace and comfort during those times. Thank you for sharing your story.