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When you find out that your husband is deploying, you have that date stuck in your head. You think about that date and it’s constantly on your mind. You prepare yourself mentally and emotionally, and when that date gets closer you do everything you can to make the most of the time left. But when that date changes, then that is when the mind game starts. You get that roller coaster of emotions.
I am one of those people who likes to be prepared. I have to know what is going on ahead of time, I have to have a plan. Military life is the total opposite of that and it has caused me to realize that I can’t always be a planner. I won’t always know what’s going to happen because things change- especially in the military!
The goodbyes have been said, the bags have been packed, and last minute preparations were in place, but my husband’s deployment date has changed several times in the past two days. Not earlier like I had almost thought to expect but to a date over a week later. It’s not that far I know, but to prepare yourself and spend all those last moments doing what you can to make them last, it’s almost as though I don’t know what to do with the extra time.
I had it all planned out, the sitter, the friend coming so I didn’t have to drive back alone, but it’s all changed now. I am thankful for a little bit more time together, but now all my plans have gone away. Two verses come to mind in this situation: “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts,” and “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” God knows what’s going on and he knows how I feel. He is here even in this, even in the emotions I am feeling.
So to everyone who will still see us around, he’s still leaving, just not the date expected. Thank you all for your prayers.