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Lately, I have been thinking a lot about friendship. Ever since I was a little girl, I have had problems making friends. I have known a lot of people over the years, but when I stop to think about it, how many of these people can I actually call real friends? Even in college, I would make friends only to realize that I was the only one making the effort.
When I stopped asking people to hang out or do something with me, no one really cared, they went on with their own life, like we never even had a friendship. I still have people that I hang out with and call friends, but I know that when I move again, I will have to start all over, and that most of these people I will never hear from again. It used to bother me, it bothered me a lot. It has been hanging over me my whole life, why do people not like me? I try to be a good friend, but it never seems to mean anything to the people I am friends with.
Two years ago, I came to a conclusion. I was at college and I had just lost a friend of mine, because we had had a fight about some things. That summer, I agonized as to why this was happening. I cried and cried because I was so sad to keep losing friends. But God really showed me something that summer. That I do not need friends to live a happy life serving him. He was all I needed. God showed me that he good be the best friend any girl could ever ask for. He is there 24/7 and is willing to listen to any problem we have. I was amazed… I had heard that God was my friend, but it was like something really awakened in me. My whole life I had been depending on friends, thinking that if I did not have many or any at all, I was nothing. I had been leaning on them instead of God!
I am not perfect, I still sometimes wish I could find that “best friend” that most people have. But I always have God and I know that He is all I need to get me through. He is the friend I can lean on at anytime.
God has so many things to show us, we just have to open our eyes, and let Him show us the truth…